Marriage, Empathy, Gratitude
So many things I have wanted to write and no time to write.
But for today I want to express gratitude and appreciation for my marriage. A few years ago I faced the very real possibility of losing my marriage because of my husbands addiction. At that time I grieved the loss of hopes and dreams, gave up many expectations, and had to come to an acceptance that what ever my husband chose I would be Okay. It was a necessity so I could maintain the boundaries to keep myself and my children safe. I am very grateful that my husband chose recovery, but I also am much more aware of all of the women and children around me who did experience that loss. My heart goes out in empathy towards them and the challenges they face because of that loss. As the saying in recovery circles goes, “But for the grace of God, there go I”
I also notice those who have lost their spouses to death and have more compassion and empathy for their situations. All of it makes me even more aware of all the little blessings and priviledges I still have because I do still have the physical presence of my husband with me. I appreciaate those things so much more and try to tell my husband that as often as I think of it when he is close by. I want to savor those moments. I wanted to go into some specific details but don’t have the time right now. I have another busy and fulfilling day ahead of me.